05 June 2008

I need to do it.

Without being too cliche, this past year has been an emotional roller coaster.  Really, it has.  I have found myself in the most unplanned of circumstances, in the most dreadful of situations, with the most dreadful of persons.  Subsequently, I found myself in the most wonderful of circumstances, in the wonderful of situations, with the most wonderful of persons.  It's been quite a ride.

And, so - I am taking the opportunity to relax for 11 days.  Yes, I actually get to relax.  That is such a foreign thought to me!  I am, in every sense of the word, a hyper-planner.  I plan everything.  I schedule myself for weeks - months - of commitments.  I go to everything I'm invited to and usually get there early to help set up.  I plan the get-togethers, I help people with their birthdays, weddings, design needs, babysitting, etc. etc. etc.  

Don't get me wrong, I love it.  I love being "that person" that people can rely on, I really do.  But, I am also looking forward to no responsibilities, no plans, no agenda, nothing.  Hooray for nothing!  Nothing is wonderful!

So, my trip with consist of leaving my city of trees on July 18th and commencing on what will be my very first time traveling alone.  This is a huge feat for me.  At 22, I have never ridden on a plane alone, found my way in an airport alone, entertained myself on a plane.  I have always had a travel companion.  Always.  And, so, I will make my first trek to Hawaii, Lana'i specifically, all by myself.  Silly, I know, but this is a big deal for me.

I will spend my trip relaxing, having some quality girl-time, and basically being young.  I am taking a step back from the instadulthood that I succumbed to at such a young age.  Hooray for me.  :)

And, now, I have to fight the urge to plan those 11 days.  It's not easy for me...


Anonymous said...

I can't tell you how proud I am of you! This truly is a big feat~ an exciting one~ And one that is long overdue. Try your very best to NOT plan your trip. Hawaii, especially, is a place to "hang loose" and play things by ear. How bout this: be a follower. Crazy huh? Arrive to Hawaii not having any place to be except with Rhoda, and let her do the "show and tell". Believe me, a trip to Hawaii is worth it if the only thing you do is lay on the beach all day. =) I'm so happy for you! I wish I could be there for your first flight alone---but that would kinda defeat the purpose ;-) Love you!!!

Live one day at a time said...

I kno I've told you already, but Im happy for you! Taking this step is a great thing. Enjoy every minute of it! Take everything slowly and dont plan a thing.. let things come to you.. its a great way to try to relax and live!!

Jung Radical said...

Is this by epiphany, or is it because no one answered the call to go with? :)

This is probably going to be the best time to go for a long time, what with gas going up and all, Hawaii is sure to be more expensive to visit in the future than it already is.

Have fun, get some sun, and don't fall in the Volcano.

Oh, and watch the movie Bra Boys - http://www.braboysfilm.com/ It's not Hawaii, exactly, but it is surfing. :)

mr. landon beau said...

I think you'll love it. Not planning anything is the only way to travel as far as I'm concerned.

And kudos to you for blogging! We can be blog buddies now.